/> Rakhi Sawant who has been eliminated from Bigg Boss feels the element of reality is underplayed in the show.

"Right now everything feels unreal. Most of the contestants were busy acting all the time, manipulating things to their own advantage, forming their own groups. I was the odd moohphat one out, and I suffered," says Rakhi happily.

Re-living her one month of exile she says, "It may be a reality show. But it was unreal for me. I learnt so much about life and people. All my life I had been pampered.

But there in the house in Karjat there was no one to wipe my tears when I cried...not my mother, not my boyfriend Abhishek Awasthi. It taught me to be self-sufficient and to value the people who love me."

Most of all, the one-month experience taught Rakhi to be an expert at washing laundary. "I had started my own Sawant Laundary Service in there. I washed everyone's clothes. What else could I do to while away my time? I was so bored. There was nothing to do."

One good thing that came out of the experience was that Rakhi's constant companion Abhishek (a small- time tv actor) publicly confessed his love for her. "Abhishek is my choreographer companion best friend and boy-friend.

He accompanies me on all my shows. I love him the most. I missed him so much during my stay in Karjat. It made me realize I want to spend the rest of my life with him. But marriage isn't on the cards right now."

The one thing that this spunky item girl didn't do in there was chamchagiri. "If I had massaged their heads and egos, cooked their favourite delicacies and if I slept in the boys' room, I wouldn't have been eliminated.

I'm a very frank and honest person. I admit I wanted to form my own group with Kashmira Shah Anupama Verma and Amit Sand. But I was let down. Amit whom I liked and wanted to befriend, behaved and spoke very badly with me.

He said he can have me thrown out in a minute. Who's he to throw me out? Believe me, I tolerated a lot of things. I wasn't able to sleep because everyone kept talking and singing or snoring till late in the night. Ab main chayan ki neend soti hoon."

Then she pauses and says, "But you know what? Given a chance, I'd like to go back again for the experience. I still haven't booked my performance for the New Year's Eve. I am waiting for the highest bidder. But if I am asked to come back on Bigg Boss then things can change. I am ready to make adjustments to go back"

But we have some news for her. Our sources reveal that the channel has decided not to rope Rakhi as a wildcard entry on December 15 as she demanded a fee hike. Instead they have gone for rapper-singer Baba Sehgal as the new inmate at Bigg Boss's house.

There were also some speculations about Aryan and Kashmera's comeback but they didn't materialize.

The December 15 episode of Bigg Boss will also have John Abraham as part of a promotion strategy for his film Kabul Express.