His admiration for Sridevi is not known to many but filmmaker Ram Gopal Varma has opened up about it in his autobiography by dedicating a chapter on his celebrity crush.

In the book titled `Guns and Thighs`, Varma describes Sridevi as the `Goddess of beauty` and why he cannot forgive her husband Boney Kapoor.

`It was a love letter... I was going overboard but that was my feeling. Everyone can have a crush on anyone, be it on a real person or a celebrity, you enjoy that feeling of high... It is almost like a drug.

`...To see Sridevi making tea in Boney Kapoor's kitchen was a huge letdown. I won't forgive him because he brought the angel down from heaven to the kitchen of his apartment,` Varma said while confessing his love for the `Chandni` star. Moving on, the `Satya` director was asked about his feelings for actress Urmila Matondkar, who was considered his muse.

Varma revealed in the book that capturing Urmila's beauty on camera was one of the reasons behind making `Rangeela`, which turned the actress into a superstar overnight.

`I honestly feel it is important for director to get obsessed with the characters. I think it is similar to how I shotAmitabh Bachchanin 'Sarkar'. He is obviously not a woman but I was feeling a high to capture his close-ups and highlight his minutest of expressions. That way, I don't see a fundamental difference between a 'Rangeela' and a 'Sarkar',` he said.

Among the people, who Varma has dedicated his autobiography to, is author Ayn Rand, best known for his book `The Fountainhead`.

The filmmaker said it is his greatest dream to adapt the book into a movie.

`My greatest dream is to make a film on 'The Fountainhead', which I have been restraining from doing because it is so much in the mind and I am yet to able to decode that, for example if you read about Howard Roark or think about him then it is very difficult to see him in person.

`The moment you see him in person, you would think how he is moving, how he will smile, how will he have a sip of coffee... But that's my all time dream to make the film.`