British reality show star Jade Goody claims her racist behaviour with Bollywood actress Shilpa Shetty on the show "Celebrity Big Brother" has led to some people to say she deserved her illness.

"There are people out there who think I deserve to be sick and to die, but I'd never wish this on anyone, not even Bin Laden, not that he has a womb," Goody told OK! magazine.

"This isn't something I've brought on myself. Some people will say it's about time I got my punishment, but my whole life has been awful," she added.

Goody is preparing to begin 18 months of chemotherapy and radiotherapy after an eight-hour operation to remove her womb after she was diagnosed with cervical cancer.

She has cut her hair short in preparation for the day it falls out due to the chemo sessions and has even started planning her funeral.

"I've started writing a will which kind of makes you realise that you are going to die. I have to think about what I'm going to leave my kids or who I'm going to leave them with. The only person good enough for my kids is me," she averred.