by Subhash K Jha
There's a story about the radically chic Nadira. About five years ago,a producer went to Nadira's
small but elegant apartment in South Mumbai to sign her. He had a contract ready. Nadira took
one imperious look at the contract and threw it in the shocked producer's face. "I've worked with the
likes of Mehboob Khan and Raj Kapoor. They never made me sign a contract."
This was the lady who re-wrote many rules of starry conduct in Bollywood. Gulzar pays a nostalgic
but unsentimental homage.
"She was one of the most large-hearted women I had ever met. She was all heart...I worked with
her only once, for my serialization of short stories on national television called Kirdaar. She did a
story about a faded actresss called 'Sunset Boulevard'. I started the narration with the actress sitting
at home watching herself on a 16 mm screen singing Mud mud ke na dekh (Shri 420).
I
remember Nadiraji got nostalgic after the shot. She spoke about Mehboob Khan and Raj
Kapoor...People seemed to think she was lonely...Was she? I don't know. Some people are lonely
by nature, others are destined to be lonely. She would've been lonely even when surrounded by
people. It wasn't as though Nadiraji was short of friends.
Whoever she met in the journey of
life remained attached to her to the end. Today at her funeral Nimmi and her husband Ali Reza were
there, so were Shammi(old actress), Amin Sayani and Mahesh Bhatt Saab...and the man who
remained with her till the end was Rungta Saab(owner of the Famous studios)...She didn't make a
family.
She married Nakqshab Saab who migrated to Pakistan and re-married. Women are
so large-hearted. Nadiraji forgave him...She was a voracious reader, and not out of loneliness. Even
when she worked with Mehboob Khan Saab in Aan she read ferociously.
She lived her life
in books, and that's the way she liked it...I met her on a flight some years ago. She came up to my
seat and said she wanted to sit next to me. When the airhostess told her to wait, she took me
along and forced me to sit with her . Then she looked at me and and said, 'You're a senior citizen.
You can get a discount on your air tickets.'
She was a really sweet friend. ...I remember
one of our first meetings at my relative's home. When I was introduced as an aspiring poet, she
quipped, 'So you want to be another Ghalib?' That day she spoke to me as though I was a school
boy...
She lived her life the way she wanted to. And that's the way it should be. No one can
live life the way other people want. ...Shaadi kar leti bachche hote...Suchitra Sen has all of that. Still
she's all alone, isn't she? It's a creative solitude, and therefore desirable."
"People presumed my short story 'Sunset Boulevard' is based on Suchitra Sen's life. It isn't. It can
be any lonely actress, Meena Kumari, Suchitra Sen or Nadira...It's a fragrant solitude. Let it be.
Don't try to romanticize it in a cheap manner."
He gets more nostalgic about Nadira, "Her phone calls used to come suddenly. 'Gulzar Saab Main
Farhad bol rahi hoon'. She insisted I call her by her real name. The most beautiful moment with her
came when she wasn't getting her shot right during Kirdaar and I got impatient. She turned to me
and said one of the loveliest lines I've ever heard.
'Aapko pataa kaise chalaa ki maine
aapko mujhe daant dene ki ijaazat de di?'(how did you know I had given you the permission to scold
me?). It's a line I'll never forget. No small person can say something so big. I get tears in my eyes
when I remember that line."
As for the film industry's tendency to abandon the old and retired denizens...Gulzar is dismissive.
"Let's not play the blame game. If Nadira chose to be alone, it's her choice. You're talking about
Hrishi-da (Hrishikesh Mukherjee) being neglected.
Have you asked him if he wants the
industry's company? He lives with his family—bahus, children...whatever he needs. Everyone tries
to be wise from the outside. Why do we try to make a film out of everyone's life? When I met
Hrishi-da last , he had grown a beard and was cracking jokes. Where was the unhappiness? Let's not
bring down the legends by pitying them."
Gulzar Saab returns to Nadira. "I'll make my next
film. But Nadiraji cannot be in it."
Nadira chose to be alone herself: Gulzar
Friday, February 10, 2006 17:00 IST