Singer Lily Allen, who lost her son following a miscarriage in 2010, felt `numb` despite complications, which left her fighting for her own life.

The 28-year-old singer opened up about losing her son in an interviews to The Sun, reports contactmusic.com.

She sid: `It was horrendous and something I would not wish on my worst enemy. It's something that I still haven't dealt with ... But it's not something that you get over.

`I held my child and it was really horrific and painful - one of the hardest things that can happen to a person ... I nearly died. But I was numb and I didn't care. I'd just lost my baby and that is a reflection of how numb I was.`

Allen and her husband Sam Cooper went on to have daughters Ethel, 2, and Marnie, 1, and they still feel their son is part of the family.

`I just think that he's a part of my eldest really. If he hadn't died, it wouldn't have physically been possible for our eldest to be alive because I got pregnant with her so quickly.

`We've got a little stone in our garden with his name on. And lots of different things that I do, rituals, I have him in my mind,` she said.