"Am happy in a way, I haven't got to see her (Jade), it would've depressed me no end. I always want to remember her smiling, the feisty, strong, gregarious Jade, a true Trooper!" Shilpa said on her blog.
"It's a helpless feeling, as long as she knows am here, which I don't think she's aware of, because she is unconscious, heavily drugged since the pain is excruciating, Max Clifford (Jade's publicist) told me."
Shilpa had rushed to London Sunday to meet Jade Goody, but was unable to see the ailing star whose condition is deteriorating rapidly due to cervical cancer.
"In the current scenario I totally understand what the family must be going through and I respect their privacy and hope she and her family is able to cope with this inexplicable pain. You are in my prayers, Jade. You are destiny's child!, " she added.
Shilpa was at the receiving end of racial barbs by Jade during the 2007 "Celebrity Big Brother" but the two had made peace soon after.